Feeling Stuck

So this week I'm at 142.2 again. No progress which is eh, but no backsliding which is good. I'm trying overall to be more mindful about what I'm putting in my body. I finally FINALLY threw out the rest of the christmas/holiday cookies that I've been eating for the past month which is honestly probably what caused my problem in the first place. The truth is I just feel guilty throwing out food...even if I don't want it in my apartment. Like I need to reverse my mindset a little bit because right now my brain is like:


Waste food <<<<< Eat the food even if I don't like it too much and its bad for me and will keep me fat.

when I should think:

its ok to not eat the food you don't want. You're not a garbage disposal.

*sigh*

Well now I'm on the cardiac care unit working for the next 3 weeks. I hope its busy, because if I'm bored I'll just munch all day. If I'm busy enough sometimes I'll forget to eat, which honestly is ideal. And while we're being honest, in August when I was working in the ICU I was so busy I was at the lowest weight I've been since leaving college, so I'd love to get back to them. For now my goal is going to be losing .5 lbs a week. Not a crazy goal, considering I'm really only trying to lose 5 lbs overall--so hopefully in 10 weeks I'll be there!